Almost divorced 2 kids wife wants 2 b free 6 mths and has boyfriend and is lying about itnow possibly?

I was arrested 4 times for wanting to visit, wife didn't want to work on marriage, I did now Poolboy possible boyfriend and it's killing me and she ripping my childrens and my heart apart, what will make the pain stop so I can focus on children not the betrayal of a wife who just wants friends